I'd hv probably save my relationship if i am to be tis Mr.Nice guy. My apology dat i can't get thru my selfishness and egoness all these while which is so costly at tis moment to our relationship. I noe sry couldn't save anything nor explain in words now my gurl . . I love u still . . .

Throughout these 360 days of our relationship, i never stop saying i love you, all that i can recall, i said it almost every day. Every time, u told me u r already bored to hear the same thing but still, i never give up. I said i love you every day because i really do and all i can say, much more than loving my own self. For every loving message that you send to me, i still keep it in my phone. Whenever u scold me without any reason or maybe just to released ur tension…. you know why i never argue back or even said anything back but to keep quiet? You know what keep me going? It’s all because of love, because of the message you send to me and because of your trust in me.

I guess you really didn’t notice something else, you always get angry at me for nothing, you always scold me even if im kidding with you. I never said u r wrong, instead i blame myself! Did u notice i keep saying “im sorry” every time when u r angry even if im not wrong? I never ever once mind about this because you are the other part of my life. We only go out once a week, sometimes only once a month…. for every 2 hours we have, i did try my best to treasure every moment. In these two hours, i really don’t know where to start and where to end. All i wish is just to accompany you even for an extra second.

Do you still remember, even during Chinese New Year, i have to visit your house secretly while your parents were out? When you are hungry, i have to wait till your parents were out again, only then i can send over the food to you. You know, every time when u told me u have gastric, my heart really feel the pain, i can’t send over the medicine immediately bcos they are around. I never blame them instead i blame myself for being useless. Every time, i have to secretly put the medicine in your mailbox and you get it from there. I park somewhere far and keep waiting just to see you for a glance.

Did u know that whenever my parents ask me if ur parents treat me well…..i told them YES. I told them ur parents love me and treat me really well but whenever i answer them, I would drop my tears secretly. On my mom’s birthday, i bought my mom favorites and told her the present is from you. Yeah, i know it is not expensive but i did it all bcos of you.

When you told me your dad won’t support u in ur study, did u know i go to most of the uni and check the total cost of the course? I go and apply for loan and hope that one day, you will be a very successful girl. I cheated you that i can get 50% discount on the uni, but u didn’t know, i pay for the other 50 cos i know u dislike anyone to help.

Ive already tried my best to do everything in life that i will never ever regret i do have you for once in my whole life.

Another good sentiments to share here tis evening. Very sentimental written blog i would like to rate tis as. All i would like to comment, tis relationship deemed to be single-sided frm the beginning. How apt dat tis is wat i'd walked thru in my love life. . and it's all over and the past of me . . . I could'nt noe how to pick up da pieces and move on, tis is da reason i'm still stucking in da circle of mistakes  . . .

Only 5 days left to a year. Have you even lent a second to yourself and think about it? All of that means nothing to you? Even for the moment when you wear the ring? Did you know that a man's deepest fear is that he is not good enough or that he is incompetent? I know it's hard for you to receive but you gotta know men are afraid of giving as well. Now I know it all, the words "Love You" doesn't mean anything until the last breath. Instead, nothing will mean anything until the last second.

It's not I haven't tried! I've tried it all. All the while, I never give up, I never stop for anything and I never even said I'm tired. You know, what hurt me the most is when I ask you to choose your study rather than me. Whenever you said u are hungry, I rush to buy your favorites even when I'm at work. When you tell me you are sick, i can’t concentrate on my work bcos im really worried. Whenever you said u r sad, i feel like a failure.

You know what; people said your laugh starts if you find the person you really love. It's hard to pretend I'm not hurt, 2 giggle, 2 pretend Im ok. It's hard to laugh after I have cried. What's worst is im still in love with someone even after u have said goodbye.

Laugh never gets tough if you can handle it better. Cries wont be tears if ur not hurt. Sadness wont mean anything unless you are down. Anger will be nothing if apology comes right after. Smiles mean nothing if it comes from da unknown. A touch never says it cares unless you think so. There are lots of things in laugh that have a different meaning of its own, so if you feel like having a duel with laugh, there you go!.you get it!

Girls! We, men argue for the right to be free while women argue for the right to be upset. Men want space while women want understanding. For a men like me, staying in love, getting married, and having a family is as difficult as flying a jumbo jet without any training. I may be able to take off, but im sure to crash. It is difficult to continue flying once you have crashed the plane a few times. Now is the time to say that’s why everyone gave up relationship so easily….

A drip of water could just turn my candle light off.