I'd hv probably save my relationship if i am to be tis Mr.Nice guy. My apology dat i can't get thru my selfishness and egoness all these while which is so costly at tis moment to our relationship. I noe sry couldn't save anything nor explain in words now my gurl . . I love u still . . .

Throughout these 360 days of our relationship, i never stop saying i love you, all that i can recall, i said it almost every day. Every time, u told me u r already bored to hear the same thing but still, i never give up. I said i love you every day because i really do and all i can say, much more than loving my own self. For every loving message that you send to me, i still keep it in my phone. Whenever u scold me without any reason or maybe just to released ur tension…. you know why i never argue back or even said anything back but to keep quiet? You know what keep me going? It’s all because of love, because of the message you send to me and because of your trust in me.

I guess you really didn’t notice something else, you always get angry at me for nothing, you always scold me even if im kidding with you. I never said u r wrong, instead i blame myself! Did u notice i keep saying “im sorry” every time when u r angry even if im not wrong? I never ever once mind about this because you are the other part of my life. We only go out once a week, sometimes only once a month…. for every 2 hours we have, i did try my best to treasure every moment. In these two hours, i really don’t know where to start and where to end. All i wish is just to accompany you even for an extra second.

Do you still remember, even during Chinese New Year, i have to visit your house secretly while your parents were out? When you are hungry, i have to wait till your parents were out again, only then i can send over the food to you. You know, every time when u told me u have gastric, my heart really feel the pain, i can’t send over the medicine immediately bcos they are around. I never blame them instead i blame myself for being useless. Every time, i have to secretly put the medicine in your mailbox and you get it from there. I park somewhere far and keep waiting just to see you for a glance.

Did u know that whenever my parents ask me if ur parents treat me well…..i told them YES. I told them ur parents love me and treat me really well but whenever i answer them, I would drop my tears secretly. On my mom’s birthday, i bought my mom favorites and told her the present is from you. Yeah, i know it is not expensive but i did it all bcos of you.

When you told me your dad won’t support u in ur study, did u know i go to most of the uni and check the total cost of the course? I go and apply for loan and hope that one day, you will be a very successful girl. I cheated you that i can get 50% discount on the uni, but u didn’t know, i pay for the other 50 cos i know u dislike anyone to help.

Ive already tried my best to do everything in life that i will never ever regret i do have you for once in my whole life.

Another good sentiments to share here tis evening. Very sentimental written blog i would like to rate tis as. All i would like to comment, tis relationship deemed to be single-sided frm the beginning. How apt dat tis is wat i'd walked thru in my love life. . and it's all over and the past of me . . . I could'nt noe how to pick up da pieces and move on, tis is da reason i'm still stucking in da circle of mistakes  . . .

Only 5 days left to a year. Have you even lent a second to yourself and think about it? All of that means nothing to you? Even for the moment when you wear the ring? Did you know that a man's deepest fear is that he is not good enough or that he is incompetent? I know it's hard for you to receive but you gotta know men are afraid of giving as well. Now I know it all, the words "Love You" doesn't mean anything until the last breath. Instead, nothing will mean anything until the last second.

It's not I haven't tried! I've tried it all. All the while, I never give up, I never stop for anything and I never even said I'm tired. You know, what hurt me the most is when I ask you to choose your study rather than me. Whenever you said u are hungry, I rush to buy your favorites even when I'm at work. When you tell me you are sick, i can’t concentrate on my work bcos im really worried. Whenever you said u r sad, i feel like a failure.

You know what; people said your laugh starts if you find the person you really love. It's hard to pretend I'm not hurt, 2 giggle, 2 pretend Im ok. It's hard to laugh after I have cried. What's worst is im still in love with someone even after u have said goodbye.

Laugh never gets tough if you can handle it better. Cries wont be tears if ur not hurt. Sadness wont mean anything unless you are down. Anger will be nothing if apology comes right after. Smiles mean nothing if it comes from da unknown. A touch never says it cares unless you think so. There are lots of things in laugh that have a different meaning of its own, so if you feel like having a duel with laugh, there you go!.you get it!

Girls! We, men argue for the right to be free while women argue for the right to be upset. Men want space while women want understanding. For a men like me, staying in love, getting married, and having a family is as difficult as flying a jumbo jet without any training. I may be able to take off, but im sure to crash. It is difficult to continue flying once you have crashed the plane a few times. Now is the time to say that’s why everyone gave up relationship so easily….

A drip of water could just turn my candle light off.

Say our way

WE MALAYSIANS speak and/use English to varying degrees of competence.

At one end of the spectrum is standard English. At the other end is a jumble of English, Malay, Chinese, and Indian words, expressions, syntax, etc. which, seemingly, is fed into a mangle to yield a heady rojak which is Manglish [mangled + English].

Somewhere between the two extremes is Malaysian English, which in the main is proper English but with an unmistakable Malaysian accent which we may refer to as AP (Accepted Pronunciation), not RP (Received Pronunciation).

Manglish is our much-beloved patois which we use among close friends and among acquaintances to show that we belong. Malaysian English we use for official, academic and commercial purposes.

However, we must be aware, where foreigners are concerned, that certain words may be puzzling, such as those which have assumed a new grammatical function, those which have a local slant, those which are back-formations, and those that are pure inventions.

Let us have a look at some such Malaysianisms.

Words with new grammatical function

Two motoring terms come to mind. One is gostan, derived from the phrase “go astern”, where two words have blended into one, with a small change in pronunciation. Thus, a Malaysian guiding a motorist backing his car would say, “Gostan a bit more to the left.”

The other word is horn (specifically a car horn). The noun has evolved into a verb, as when a car arrives at a house and the passenger saying to the driver, “Come on. Let’s horn Muthu to hurry up” as if the car horn was invented to substitute for ringing the door-bell or knocking at the door!

Words with a local slant

There are many words which have acquired a local slant. To send a child to school has come to mean driving him to school, with the sender going along as well.

An analogous word is follow. In standard English, Mary’s little lamb followed her to school, meaning that the lamb walked behind Mary to catch up her. In Malaysia, A follows B when in fact A is accompanying B.

A and B could be walking together holding hands or travelling together in the same vehicle.

Another Malaysianism is the word stay in connection with a residence, e.g. “He stays at 3 Minden Road.”, instead of “He lives at 3 Minden Road.”

There does not seem to be an awareness that “lives” connotes a sense of permanence whereas “stays” connotes a temporary arrangement, e.g. “He stayed in a budget hotel while on holiday.”

Shopping and marketing are rather similar words. Malaysians use the word “shopping” in the usual way, to mean “going to a shop or shops to buy goods”; and analogously, they use the word “marketing” to mean “going to a market to buy provisions and things”.

But the second word is very different in concept. Ask the marketing people in an organisation. They do not go to the market to get their stuff. On the contrary, they make their goods or services available to buyers or customers or clients, “especially in a planned way which encourages people to buy more” (Cambridge International Dictionary of English).

Schooling is another word loosely used as an intransitive verb, to mean “still attending school”.

In fact, school is a transitive verb to mean “to educate in a school; to train in a particular discipline, skill, or activity”, e.g. “It takes a lot of patience to school a dog.”/ “He was schooled in a top university.”

The word “schooling” may be used as a gerund in the usual way, e.g. “Schooling a dog takes patience.”

The non-gerund ‘–ing’ form is also used to mean “education or training”, e.g. “The boss had very little formal schooling.”

Back-formations

Malaysians have come up with some words which are the products of some ingenuity. Consider the Malaysianism stinge, obviously a back-formation from “stingy”. To stinge is to act in a stingy way. How apt!

The word, coincidentally, has some affinity to “stint”, which has almost the same connotation.

Invented words

Here again are some words that are the products of Malaysian ingenuity. Consider the word actsy. I can only speculate on its origin. We talk of a swaggering or boastful person as someone who acts big. Add the suffix ‘–y’ to the word “acts”, and voilà! we get “actsy”. [I note that many of our politicians are very actsy.]

Another interesting invention is the word itchified. Its etymology is obvious, but does its formation follow the usual principles of derivation? Why not?

Consider the word “speech” and its derivative “speechify”. Hence, “itchify” has a precedent, and the word is used predicatively in the past participial form, “itchified”. [My friends tell me that some politicians are itchified.]

Short, vague and out of time to post, so I’d juz make tis a simple summary of our Love Music Cafe. Again, I probably would b much happier if someone would actually help me wif the pictures thingy. Ah! !~ Guess, Ah wan, ming or kim hv to help me up wif it liao lolz. . . It’s all begin wif erm. . . Ntg . . . .haha! Well, before tis, I guess everyone of us were struggling with da songs and musics dat we gonna perform on dat particular night due to the limited time dat we had for da practice. Anyhow, thx God tat we hv CF and 三人行 together wif CCF to indulge the freshies on dat night. Well, we, CCF doesn’t know how to express them in words but it’s our gratitude and privilege to hv tis chance to work together as ONE :)

The venue: C1 hall, Cyberia

Time: 7.30pm

Brox Chee Fai was da Emcee of dat night. As usual, suppose that the event having to be started at 7.30 but we delayed it till 8pm. So, roughly we started with the serving of foods to the guest as a refreshment

After comforting our insatiable stomach, we carry on wif the songs entitled 當我懂得你的愛 sang by Shi Song, Kim, Ming and Winter

Followed by the welcoming applause to the freshies in MMU, Cyberjaya ^ ^

After tat, the event continued by the CCF introduction clips

The Music Cafe continued with the songs by 三人行, consisting of Chee Meng, Chang Seng and Ah mi aka phyllisia. In da meantime, dey shared deir experienced few years back here in MMU

We had a break with the serving of foods, photography session and chit-chatting with the guests before continued with the song 亲爱的，那不是爱情 solo by TT Gurl

Green apple and Ivy continued with the song, My Love Will Get You Home and 這就是你的愛

Here comes the CF with the songs together wif Ice-Breaking song to enhance the night ^ ^!

After that we were entertained with the song 期待你的爱 presented by Joseph and Yue Er

The second last song was 一千零一个愿望 sang by Ivy and TT gurl.

The closing song were 私奔到月球 sang by Ah Fai and Shu Wan

一起走到

作詞：梁文福　作曲：李迪文　

是否還記得　從前美麗的天色
那時天很藍　我們的未來都在不遠地方晴朗著
一切都變了　生命不只是快樂
濃濃黑霧籠罩我們　暴風雨就要來了
但誰說不能　肩並著肩站穩
我們用心和用愛創造　讓新的世界誕生

在我心中我知道　這是永恆的長跑
好不容易　來到這裡
明天還要追更多榮耀
把自己角色扮演好　全力以赴每一秒
和我的家人　和我的朋友
向著目標　手牽手　一起走到

這又是起點　我們有一樣心願
當我們團結　狂風巨浪也不能阻擋我們走向前
誰害怕改變　只要緊握著信念
心中有夢　沒有遙遠
跨出去就在瞬間　但誰說不能
肩並著肩　站穩　我們用心和用愛創造
讓新的世界誕生

We will get THERE

Remember the days,

We set out together with faith?
Remember the time, so fine, when we thought that nothing couldn’t stand in our way?
Then things weren't the same, the life that we knew had to change,

We've struggled through, the darkest storms, we thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried, as we stood side by side,

I knew we'd build a new world, a world of hope for ever after,

(Chorus)

Deep in my heart, I just know,

Right from the start, we will grow,

Look where we are, we've come so far,

And there is still a long, long way to go,

With all of my heart, I will care,

I will play my part, I will share, with family and friends, together we'll stand,

And in the end, hand in hand,

We will get there.

So now we begin, working together to win,

Believe in trust, it must be possible to overcome anything,

There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute,

By sharing just a little love, we will start again a new,

So why don't we try?

If we stand side by side, I know we'll build a new world,

A world of hope for ever after,

(Chorus 2x)