I'd hv probably save my relationship if i am to be tis Mr.Nice guy. My apology dat i can't get thru my selfishness and egoness all these while which is so costly at tis moment to our relationship. I noe sry couldn't save anything nor explain in words now my gurl . . I love u still . . .

Throughout these 360 days of our relationship, i never stop saying i love you, all that i can recall, i said it almost every day. Every time, u told me u r already bored to hear the same thing but still, i never give up. I said i love you every day because i really do and all i can say, much more than loving my own self. For every loving message that you send to me, i still keep it in my phone. Whenever u scold me without any reason or maybe just to released ur tension…. you know why i never argue back or even said anything back but to keep quiet? You know what keep me going? It’s all because of love, because of the message you send to me and because of your trust in me.

I guess you really didn’t notice something else, you always get angry at me for nothing, you always scold me even if im kidding with you. I never said u r wrong, instead i blame myself! Did u notice i keep saying “im sorry” every time when u r angry even if im not wrong? I never ever once mind about this because you are the other part of my life. We only go out once a week, sometimes only once a month…. for every 2 hours we have, i did try my best to treasure every moment. In these two hours, i really don’t know where to start and where to end. All i wish is just to accompany you even for an extra second.

Do you still remember, even during Chinese New Year, i have to visit your house secretly while your parents were out? When you are hungry, i have to wait till your parents were out again, only then i can send over the food to you. You know, every time when u told me u have gastric, my heart really feel the pain, i can’t send over the medicine immediately bcos they are around. I never blame them instead i blame myself for being useless. Every time, i have to secretly put the medicine in your mailbox and you get it from there. I park somewhere far and keep waiting just to see you for a glance.

Did u know that whenever my parents ask me if ur parents treat me well…..i told them YES. I told them ur parents love me and treat me really well but whenever i answer them, I would drop my tears secretly. On my mom’s birthday, i bought my mom favorites and told her the present is from you. Yeah, i know it is not expensive but i did it all bcos of you.

When you told me your dad won’t support u in ur study, did u know i go to most of the uni and check the total cost of the course? I go and apply for loan and hope that one day, you will be a very successful girl. I cheated you that i can get 50% discount on the uni, but u didn’t know, i pay for the other 50 cos i know u dislike anyone to help.

Ive already tried my best to do everything in life that i will never ever regret i do have you for once in my whole life.